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 A few days after Christmas 2001, I got this feeling. I just knew I was pregnant. However, by this point in my life, I've felt like maybe it was true so many times. Even though something felt different this time, I didn't want to trust my gut. As the days went by, nausea and heartburn set in. Jan 5, 2002 I took a home test. It showed sooo faint, I thought that I was nuts. We decided to test again in a few days. January 7, 2002, I woke up bright and early, and took another home test. Again, I saw a very faint line. So I went to the doctors office, where I had a blood draw. Although, after my experience with my son Anthony, I expected this test to come back negative. The way I had it figured, this one would say negative, then in a week, I'd go back, get another one that would be positive, just like with my son.  I wasn't surprised when the test came back negative. I knew I was pregnant. We got very excited. I started telling some friends, that although I wasn't 100% sure yet, I was pretty sure. That was Monday. Tuesday I started to feel a little weird. All day long I felt crampy and out of it. Wednesday was no better. I suddenly didn't feel so confident. I was scared to go to bathroom. I knew, there was not a doubt in my mind that I was pregnant. Then it happened. Thursday, January 10, 2002, I went to the bathroom and found spotting. I quickly confined myself to the couch, and resolved not to pick up my 1 year old, 20 pound son unless absolutely necessary. Then my husband left for work, he didn't have a choice. In the military, you can't just call in and say I think I'll take a sick day. It didn't matter though. By the time he was supposed to leave, the spotting was much worse. I knew deep down it was over and that laying down would only prolong the inevitable. So even while my heart was breaking, I got on the floor and played cars with son. After he went to bed for the night a few hours later, I sat down to my computer, and wrote in to my support groups about my newest little angel. Sunshine just seemed to be the perfect name for her. That night as I sat down to my computer, I just felt like the sunshine was gone. That little song, "You are my sunshine" just kept playing over and pver in my head. Just as I knew my son was a boy long before the ultrasounds confirmed it, I know this angel is a girl, I can feel it. 
You are my sunshine, You are my sunshine, You make me happy, When skies are gray, You'll never know dear, How much I love you, Please don't take my sunshine away If you would like to browse through the list of support sites I've complied, click here. To view the awards this site has won, please click here. Also, these poems, found on Mr. Mom's web site, were just too precious. Please visit it, read the poems, and check out the memory pages.
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